aimer et plus.

Love is a beautiful thing, learn to love. Instead of putting up walls, I'm easing them down. I'm open and allowing feelings to fill the gaps, mend the wounds, and work its magic. Don't give up, love yourself, no one else can love you as much. Love looks good on me.
"All things make sense; you just have to fathom how they make sense."

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My life has been short but I have already learned quite a bit about love... Not through personal experience, but more through seeing others I know love. Some love and lose, some lose someone they might have loved and luckily some love each other forever. I think about that one or many loves constantly, always hoping I don't miss my chance. My fear of never finding that love has made me create an unattainable goal in my head: find the perfect guy you will find the perfect relationship and you will get the perfect life. That whole scenario is what I've been looking for.

But I have realized That kind of perfectness does not exist in a person. It exists in a connection, a relationship. That is what love is. Love is that person who isn't necessarily perfect, but it perfect for you. They say real love comes when you aren't searching for it. I used to think that it was absurd to say that because most everyone is searching for love; and many do find it. But of all those people I know, who I've watched love, though it may not have lasted forever, I've realized one thing. They all loved. There isn't a person I know who could end their life saying they haven't loved. The moment I realized that was the moment I stopped searching. I stopped searching for that perfect guy, for that perfect relationship, for that perfect life. I've never been in love. But I am waiting for it. No longer searching. Waiting, because I know it will come.

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-X

as this one ends.. til next season.

As Summer comes to its bitter end, it's only natural to wonder what could have happened and what could have been different. Another 3 months of extremity, this will not be forgotten. New friendships, new adventures, new loves, new day.. inevitable things that matter and will remain a memory. Acquiring what I've been taught and the best of my knowledge, I took a challenge, a challenge at life. Everyday I'm creating myself, everyday I fall in love, everyday I think about how blessed I am. Innumerable amount of laughters, tears of joy, and tears of what made me want to pull my hair out, gave me the handful of great friends I have today. Each and everyone one of them has something that pulls us closer, yet we all share a common ground, or language. DTF friends, I want to thank you for such a wonderful summer! Fall ain't ready, nor the cities we are going to conquer. Those that matter will remain. 'Underpromise and overdeliver.'

I yearn for you thru all seasons..
-eating all day, everyday.. must I say, eat WELL.
-Late night giggles.
-50+ comments on FB threads, or just a simple picture.
-DTF: dance, drunk, & what we don't confess to each other.
-Residing in Midtown.
-Les Grivals.
-Movie nights.
-Smoking.
-Turtle racing.
-Gringos margaritas.
-Graduation.
-One day trips.
-Buffets.
-Shopping.
-Beach and one day of swimming.
-Holy water.
-Ceasar getting hurt.
-Randomly rubbing people at the club.
-New people.
-Broken hearts.
-Hatin' and lovin' bitches.
-Keeping each other strong.
-Rainy days.
-Making mistakes.
-Learning.
-Being inspired.
-Freedom.
-Beautiful people.


-X

rainy mondays.

For a moment there I think I've lost myself.. I used to have something to look forward to every single day, and now I have nothing. Pure freedom and excitement got me through the days. Never did I waste my days thinking. I knew a little about everything, and a lot about nothing. Things were such a blur. Until I got kicked real hard by life, and now, now I'm here. Venting, blogging, diary, journal, life experiences, inspiration, whatever you want it to be, I'm here. I'm ready to love, love. Taking the scenic route versus the quicker route, strangers, beautiful people, bliss, the sun, the sky, green grass, fried chicken, lemon cake, gold, music on the radio, denim, and all other beautiful things in life that should be appreciated and noticed. I'm here for it all and found happiness within.
From one of my fav bloggers, "ever feel like ur soul is on fire? someone or something opens the door and ur smacked in the face with a passion for something u never knew u had? and u start to explore yourself more and u work harder at ur own happiness and realize that u were dead before. u were just floating on what u think u should be doing rather than what ur heart tells u to be doing.. u were just… existing?"

"if i’m going to be alive, i might as well be incredible. i want to do more than just exist."

-X